three.hundred.and.twelve.

i wanted to stay in snail forever tonight.

maybe even for the whole day tomorrow.

you know, all curled in on myself so that no one could get it.

get in to get me to let down my guard.

or get in to hurt me.

yeah, i wanted to stay there forever.

sadly, the class was only 60 minutes.

and then i had to step back into the real world.

the real world that today kicked me in the ass.

the real world that made me realize how much influence we all have on each other, even if we don't know it.

and the real world that makes nothing perfect and everything a reminder that growing is never over. that things change.

and that sometimes change really f-ing blows.

to deal with the real world when it feels like this, i strongly suggest listening to peter katz.

the man has gotten me through today, that's for sure.

especially the song "son" from his new record. but if you don't have that, listen to "i do" from his myspace page.

he wrote the song for his sister. as a wedding present.

it's a story of her relationship with her husband, before they were married.

it restores some of my faith in the world.

you know, the kind that screams love does win, sometimes.

(and thank goodness for that. yes, thank the frickin' lord!)